and i can't find the words that describe how i feel right now
christmas doesn't feel like christmas at all and basically, i realise that perhaps my social circle since my rgs days has not changed as much as i thought or had hoped
but i guess i am still very thankful
because i have a wonderful boyfriend and a few very dependable friends who make such an effort to stay close by even when i feel lethargic about maintaining friendships with people who are not quite as big a part of my life as they used to be
brown has been a completely fresh start for me and although i've already carried my fierce reputation along with me, at least i've made friends that i now feel really matter as much as those few singaporean friends who remembered my arrival date and texted me. i am touched
i realise that making friends isn't difficult, its staying friends that is so hard, especially as we grow and have more and more complicated and separate lives to lead
right now, at this point, i think i know who i will remain friends with for the rest of my life
or at least, i know who i won't be friends with for very long
because those friends that remain are those who bother and those who somehow you know you bother about a lot, those people you know you will want to make an effort to keep in touch with no matter how irrelevant your lives are to the other's
and the rest will just be those people you once knew,
the people you meet randomly at stores or dinner parties by complete coincidence even if there was a time, ten years ago, when you were inseparable,
they may even be the nicest people who try to arrange reunion get-togethers that you will drag your feet to, just to be polite
it makes me sad now to think of all the friendships that will cease to exist once everyone's paths diverge
but i guess its all reality
and maybe an old friend was right when he said that friends come and go like the seasons in your life
and that's what i will accept
because all you really need are the few
who make an effort and who you are willing to make an effort for
those on speeddial or your iphone favourites
the people you reflex-call when you fight with your significant other
those are the friends i want to keep
and i know just who you people are =)

its just 4 more days till the end of final period then i'll be going to new york!and then home!
this semester has been very fruitful and fun i can't wait to get back home and eat home-cooked food and other hawker fare...chicken rice, carrot cake, sting ray, kang kong..oh yeah!

the past few months of my life has been filled with way too many random things like skittles, nail polish, webcaming, visits to urban outfitter, visits to the mall, NP study lounge, photobooth, vitamin water, doritos...haha

i also decided that i do not like halloween, and have new pet phrases = oh happy day, exciting times...haha love saying those...and i curse a lot more in hokkien now just coz it feels cool to be saying sth other than the f word.

alright man...can't wait, can't wait to be in a warm place, surrounded by the sinagporean accent and singaporean people and singaporean food.
home home coming home =)

1. stressed by finals
2. amused by church inbreeding: saw a 'new' couple on facebook who were two of my old church friends...never thought they'd get together, but there is just this inbreeding in church between christians of the same "level" - this means that right from the outset, the potential partners are already set according roughly to the other people who joined at the same time as you since growing "levels" takes time. so if a person is in church, he/she must look at all those in the same group or like "generation"(of christians) as you because one of them will be your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife unless you default to the outsiders or remain a bachelor/spinster. this is so true and so amusing.

ok, musing is over, time for studying.
cant wait to go home =(

when you're having fun!!
thanksgiving is over le =( i will be flying back to brown soon =(((((
(look at my fat face)

then the finals will be here
then singapore for christmas

my first semester overseas...
my dramatic freshman fall

omg so exciting.........
=)))